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first year of college overview
Wednesday, Mar. 22, 2006@3:14 p.m..

I was just thinking to myself. just right now. before I forget this thought and before i start working on my finals...

if some one tells me that he loves me -slash- he's in love with me...I don't want to feel that panicky feeling.

If I feel that then I guess I'm not ready for that kind of commitment.

like when jules said that. he told me through text. that's not exactly the most romantic thing, right? and I was sobrang overwhelmed nung sinabi niya sakin yun. and when I read it, I could barely breathe...

and that's not a good thing in my opinion.

I don't even want to think that he thinks that.

so. that's what I concluded. I don't know how I came up with it. but I did.

he pointed out that I'm content with what I have with my life and that maybe I didn't even need him. that's not true but that's not wrong either. I'm content. I love the things happening in my life right now except for the drama college life brought about.

the thing is, all the situations happening now? I can handle them. physically, spirityally, mentually, and emotionally. I can.

and despite the fact that I feel super sheltered and I still hang on to my mom's skirt--because I always have to know what they think...I always need their approval for everything I do and that doesn't make me feel my age despite their reminders about how old me and my sisters are every time we're scolded--I am enjoying this point in my life.

I'm actually positive now with the future.I can't believe I'm actually saying this.

because even if I've hit some bumpy roads with relatives near and far (that would be bianca), I think I'm alright with having my world shaken up a bit...

wow.

college made me grow a bit, huh, High school friends? :)

because in high school, I felt suffocated. even until now I guess especially around decision making and around my parents, but not as much as high school because there were a lot more people who knew me as such.

but I'm thankful for Maica also :) haha! college wouldn't have been fun without her :D

I feel the need| to break free

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