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to my long lost conscience
Tuesday, Jul. 19, 2005@1:38 p.m..

to my long lost conscience:
no...saying that does not make me a better person...I don't recall saying that it will...

you're right though for being my long lost conscience. I thought I lost that a real long time ago. you brought it back. I don't know whether to thank you or not but I guess you read wrong.

I didn't mean that I didn't like my cousin that way. that's another problem about me aside from my damn low self-esteem...is that what I say usually has double connotations.

I love my relatives. I favor them and I missed them terribly. I just didn't like the fact that I built this imaginary cousin in my head and I was disappointed to seeing something else.

I was estatic to see my cousin. I guess I didn't expound on why I didn't like the cousin I met.

I'm used to imagining the cousin I had back when we were younger. I basically thought that things wouldn't change and that was very immature of me to think that.

I've been idealistic and I take back disliking my cousin. that is sooo wrong...

I don't. just to clarify...there's a really long entry for you, my long lost conscience, in my other journal

is this what you guys have been saying? the fact that I post it in public to see? and that I don't talk to you guys about it?

*sigh*

must work on it, I guess...

I feel the need| to break free

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