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Control
Friday, Apr. 21, 2006@2:45 p.m..

I was recalling this conversation I had with my cousin, and she pointed out to me that I like planning everything down to the tiniest detail.

she said when things don't turn out hte way I want it to turn out, I try to find other ways to make it turn out the way I planned it pa rin.

like with my situation with him. the fact that his sudden entrance in my life was a complete surpise threw me of the perfect loop I was forming for myself.

she said kahit na medjo may pagka-open minded ako, I'm a bit narrow-minded when it comes to changes daw.

which is why I fall back to my usual habits such as distancing myself again...

Aby has a point :-< haay...

I don't leave any room for big surprises, just the little ones...I guess I like being in control over everything in my life which is why I act the way I do.

...

I mentioned before that I hate the future, right? yeah, well, I don't anymore...not like i did before, I like it a little bit now. as long as I control variables.

weird? yeah. a bit.

on a different note, I want to go out!!!

a child of my parents, I am so sheltered that just by stating, "hey, I'm going to the mall lang, okay?" sabay alis? nuh-uh...i'm not permitted to that kind of luxury *grumble*

I wish I was though. I really do.

I don't feel 18 at all...nuh-uh. I most certainly don't :-<

I feel the need| to break free

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