count on me_______we'll be friends forever_______

hmmm...
Wednesday, Feb. 08, 2006@5:59 p.m..

I have a problem...but I'm having a different problem speaking it out loud..

so, I invited Jules to Anna's birthday celebration last saturday...and he came :D

and I don't know how Annie (this tag-Adver that I know who sorta knows Jules also even if he's 2nd year na and she's only first year) knew about it but yesterday morning while I was working on my ceiling plan for my two-storey vacation house, she suddenly went:

"uy, lumabas daw kayo ni Jules nung saturday! umuusbong ang love life ng aking half-sister!"

we have this "family" thing going on sa class...and jules was supposedly my father...I didn't like him then, I thought he was cute but totally crush ni Freida si Jules so last december24, when he out-of-the-blue texted me, I confirmed my suspicion about the "secret" freida and the rest of my "siblings" were hiding from me.

and so...I feel incomfortable texting him naman pero...nagugustuhan ko na rin siya because...he's just so... *WOW* ...yun lang yung word na pwede ko mai-describe sa kanya.

parang...he's like Alcarlo, pia's Carlo, but not entirely alike...family oriented siya talaga...and he's school-spirited talaga...and...AND. BASTA.

so, one time, I found out that HE HAS a middle person...and that was Freida...the one who has a BIG crush on him but now she claims that she doesn't...

pero...alam mo yun...ayoko talagang umaagaw eh. Shari was saying: "AY! Nangagaw!" one time on the way to legarda station...and I felt guilt...ABSOLUTE MIND NUMBING GUILT because ang hirap eh...knowing for the longest time that my Friend likes this guy who likes me...and that guy keeps asking my friend certain stuff about me!

so I told him to stop...that I'd explain after some time why I don't like him to use Freida to conjure up some information about me.

and we talke one time...I asked him talaga kung bakit *ouch* siya ng *ouch* when I informed my dad who he was one time when he picked me up in front of beato and Jules was with me (because he always leaves his friends to stay with me tuesdays when I'm waiting for whoever to pick me up :"> hihi!)...I said he was "KUYA JULES" and he finally told me that he didn't want ME in particular to call him KUYA...

but of course, I got that idea from Ina and pia when i talked to them nung Saturday after I made hatid Jules to the parking area where his car was parked :D

O_____o;

napatigil yung kamay ko sa pagawa ng call-outs ko and napatingin rin si Peachy sa akin @_@; pero that was for one second lang so *hopefully* hindi halata!

but how does she know about saturday? I couldn't ask her how'd she find out kasi ang halata ko naman...

and yesterday, before my blockada and I could go to SM san Lazaro, Jules and his friends were nasa last pav. hindi ko siya pinansin because I was still wondering about who told and who else knew...

obviously, alam na rin ni Freida... *guilt* kasi how would Annie know without Freida knowing?

then si Kath and Peachy, pinagalitan ako kasi aaproach sana si Jules pero hindi ko pinansin :(

and Peachy was saying pa nga na napaka-dejected daw yung expression niya sa face niya...

and then! KINALAT NAMAN NILA TO THE REST!

o_____O

ugh.

now Valentines is coming closer @_@; oh boy! spend daw kami valentines together! @_@; pero...he's running for SC (student council of CFAD) so he might be busy...and feb14 is on a TUESDAY :( the day I'm so yucky since katatapos ko lang ng PE but he still stays with me when he always left Freida when his friends were around (she pointed that out to me by the way *sulk*)

but it's a TUESDAY!

*haay*

I don't know what to do with myself. that and I've resurrected my communication with johan again. I saw him kahapon before watching de ja vu this presentation by Salinggawi...

but he was with this girl...and the epxressions of sina maica and peachy to see if I'm affected...was comical @_@;

but I didn't feel anything. just irritaion because he snubbed me when I waved at him -___-; so I snubbed him when he approached my group.

but he's my friend so after he tapped me, I said "HELLO" then went inside that audirotium >:) mwahahaha!

maix pointed out I have a thing for guys with "J" at the beginning of their names @_@; no kaya! there's FRIDAY (name unknown yet :)) harHAR!), Matthew (first year ID also :D he's just soooo adorable!), Chin (third year dude who gave us a tour of USTe...we dubbed him "KUYA"), Nathan (friend ni Kenny, who I don't like anymore), Vincent (not anymore...he's my "twin" brother nalang daw), Lem (not anymore...), DJ (jules' kabarkada...not anymore)...definitely not J's!

HALP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel the need| to break free

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