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schizophrenic
Monday, Aug. 22, 2005@10:25 p.m..

if it would please you, I am feeling guilty I said something so harshly that quickly without thinking, ok?

I do that a lot...if you'd only realize that @_@; and it seems to me that you haven't read at all the past entries because my apologies are pretty long @_@; and I can only go so long without updating here...

now, thinking back, I guess the few times I spent with bianca wasn't what made me not like her...she wasn't around much and it isn't my place to ruin her plans just because we were there...

there were times I really appreciated the fact that she and her family spared time for us...maybe it's just me, but I felt like a total...outsider :-<

basta! mahirap kasi i-explain...

but I really enjoyed the movie marathons...and the strawberry covered chocolates we all made...and the mall thing...Dave and Busters...the private joke with the fortune cookie...

I'm not entirely a bad person (if you can actually believe that o.O;). I have a few good attributes that garner me a few good friends...that fact, I actually appreciate.

there's a reason why I have few good friends...because they get my logic and because they stop trying to understand me after some point or another.

my blockada (ooh! new term!!! :)) haha!) quickly got that...and that's why I appreciate them so much and why they won over my loyalty so easily.

people who try to be patient to do that, however, irritate the heck out of me. I hate being psychoanaliyzed...in fact, I've tried it on myslef once...it resulted in split-personality...

I'm a schizo...in all true sense, I really am. reading from the very beginnign I opened all my blogs, iba yung mga personalities na binabasa ko eh...even when I read from the very start of my dland? iba rin yung mga people na lumalabas...

I prayed to God, every time I would join dad and ate nica to the hospital and we would drop by the hospital's chapel, that I keep this disposition and that the other people wouldn't intercept...

like last saturday...everything was going alright...I was really nice it was bordering to being a push-over @_@; until whoever inside me realized this and I just simply took my research from whoever was copying it...

technically, I feel right now, that what I did was right...after all, how do you teach the person to work by herself to get her own research?

honestly? she was cramming everything at the exact subject...and she gets a 1.50 because of it...

now, my work, however, was finished a day ago and i was putting finishing touches...I got the same grade even if, modesty aside, what i did was sooo much better than hers...

even Joy's template was amazing...she shouldn't have gotten a 2.0 :( so what if her Atlantes was wrong? at least that should've been a 1.75 >_<; pero, hindi, eh...gumawa-gawa pa ng mga excuses si miss DF @_@;

so...this other one, the one full of bravado, went to the professor afterwards, bringing my template on Greek with Joy in tow...I asked her what was wrong with mine and why I got a 1.50 just in case I can change it for the next template she'll give...

she then said: "sure ka ba ikaw gumawa nito?" O_O;

oh mah gaaaadddddd...no one's ever called me a cheater (without joking, that is ^^;) before...and I wouldn't do a Bernadette and have someone else do my work for me X(

I said yes, of course...then she asked me to bring it again next meeting @_@;

i seriously don't like her...ibang level na 'to!

the wonders of STRESSTABS talaga Ü i slept from 4pm to 730pm :) and from what I heard from hannah, stresstabs are effective sleeping pills O_O; hahahahah! cool! I could've used that during summer vacation when sleep seemed like a dream away :))

I feel the need| to break free

scrabble?? - Thursday, Dec. 13, 2007
my christmas wish list - Sunday, Dec. 09, 2007
post Baguio - Friday, Oct. 26, 2007
gbook blues - Sunday, Sept. 09, 2007
ending with that - Sunday, Sept. 09, 2007