count on me_______we'll be friends forever_______

star city.
Saturday, Apr. 07, 2007@4:26 p.m..

I was psyched, okay?

I really wish I was included in the plans to go there. but apparently, I wasn't...and it's the feeling of total alientation again.

I'm not trying to alienate myself. I'm not.

but then, thinking if I did go, will I have any fun at all? Especially when they ALWAYS make me feel like an outsider?

this is effing college.

I'm counting on my real friends. and it doesn't bug me if I don't see them during my school days, but when I do get back from classes.

At least then, they won't say that I have a hidden motive behind every action.

at least then they won't say I'm plastic.

at least there in my dorm, I can breathe easty and there's no heaviness in my heart.

I really appreciate his effort. I do. And I'm trying really hard to join in with every conversation.

But I'm looking pathetic and desperate.

And it's not like I'm counted anymore.

I'll stick to my dorm mates, thank you very much.

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